My Feelings For U....My best friend.....

                                            Best Friends Forever                                                

 

Best Friends Are Forever
I sit alone thinking of you
and all the things we've both been through
You are my soul mate, my very best friend
and I know you'll be there until the end

Your shoulder to cry on will always be very long
who will be there when something is wrong
when times are tough you're always there
It shows me just how much you care

Although were going separate ways
you're in my heart till my final days
nothing can make a person see
how special a friend you are to me

I dreamed of a friend just like you
and finally my dream came true
noting else could ever fulfill
everything you're friendship will

You understand a side of me
that no one else could ever see
you know whats wrong before I cry
but if I do, you will always know why

A friend like you is hard to find
you put my problems all behind
you were there when no one cared
the best times were the ones we shared

We've been together through good and bad
you made me laugh when I was sad
and no one else could ever be
as good of a friend you are to me

Our time together is wilting away
more and more everyday
but now until the very end
you'll forever be my Best friend.

I will always be your best friend....

 

I dedicate this to my best friend viola and my close sweet best friend....

The Secret Of Happiness In My LIFE........

Though your life may not be perfect, you have to realize that no one's life is. Though you may not have everything that you want out of life, or everything that you think you deserve you have to be willing to know that no one truly gets every single thing that they desire in the exact manner that they want it.

I’d like to tell you a story…
A certain shopkeeper sent his son to learn about the secret of happiness from the wisest man in the world.
The lad wandered through the desert for forty days, and finally came upon a beautiful castle, high atop a mountain. It was there that the wise man lived.
Rather than finding a saintly man though, our hero, on entering the main room of the castle, saw a hive of activity: tradesmen came and went, people were conversing in the corners, a small orchestra was playing soft music, and there was a table covered with platters of the most delicious food in that part of the world.
The wise man conversed with everyone, and the boy had to wait for two hours before it was his turn to be given the man’s attention. The wise man listened attentively to the boy’s explanation of why he had come, but told him that he didn’t time just then to explain the secret of happiness.
He suggested that the boy look around the palace and return in two hours. “Meanwhile I want to ask you do do something,” said the wise man, handing the boy a teaspoon that held two drops of oil. ‘As you wander around, carry this spoon with you without allowing the oil to spill.”

The boy began climbing and descending the many stairways of the palace, keeping his eyes fixed on the spoon. After two hours, he returned to the room where the wise man was. “Well,” asked the wise man, “did you see the Persian tapestries that are hanging in my dining hall? Did you see the garden that it took the master gardener ten years to create? Did you notice the beautiful parchments in my library?”
The boy was embarrassed, and confessed that he had observed nothing. His only concern had been not to spill the oil that the wise man had entrusted to him.
“Then go back and observe the marvels of my world,” said the wise man.

Relieved, the boy picked up the spoon and returned to his exploration of the palace, this time observing all of the works of art on the ceilings and the walls. He saw the gardens, the mountains all around him, the beauty of the flowers, and the tasted with which everything had been selected. Upon returning to the wise man, he related in detail everything he had seen.
“But where are the drops of oil I entrusted to you?” asked the wise man. Looking down at the spoon he held, the boy saw that the oil was gone.
“Well, there is only one piece of advice I can give you.” said the wisest of wise men. “The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon”

- The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

This little story with a very big message from one of my favorite books begs the question, “Can we appreciate the beauty that surrounds us while staying focused on what is most important.”

Simplicity answers the question with a resounding “Yes!”
When life isn’t simple and you have to constantly think about

• debt
• shopping
• catching up
• spending
• competing
• appointments
• health issues
• falling behind
• family conflict
• clutter
• stuff

then there is no time to appreciate the beauty or protect what is most important to you. There is no time to be happy.
Imagine dumping everything in your life that is meaningless. Everything that you don’t do for love. What would be leftover? It’s time to prioritize the “leftover”. Somehow those most important things, those things (which usually aren’t actual things) get shoved back behind all of the things we are “supposed” to be doing, buying, reading, worrying about.
This isn’t permission to shirk your obligations, but an invitation to put the most important thing in your life today at the top of your never ending to-do list. While everyone will have a different thing at the top of the list, clearing out, or making a plan to begin clearing out clutter/debt/meaningless stuff should be close to the top until it’s gone.

That said, even before you are debt free, clutter free, or free of whatever stands in the way of you and a happier life, prioritize the precious oil in your life and start living, start enjoying immediately.
There is no doubt that clearing clutter will give you the time and space you need to fully embrace life, but you don’t have to wait for an empty drawer to get started. I know you think you will be happy when you are debt free, or happy when you fit into your skinny jeans, but I can tell you with great conviction that it’s time to be happy right now. You can be happy any time.
You know me better to think that I am suggesting that you run around with a crazy smile on your face and rainbows shooting out of your pockets, but once you believe that happiness is possible, regardless of your current circumstances, things will start to change. You will change. Your life will change. You will be happy.

What makes you happy right now???????

I tell this from my lifetime experience. So everyone enjoy and be happy and let your happiness spread everywhere.....until then bye.....

What Is LOVE??? Is It Too Risk OR Will It Gives Too Much Happiness??????

“Love, like everything else in life, should be a discovery, an adventure, and like most adventures, you don’t know you’re having one until you’re right in the middle of it.”  

Falling in love is like being high as a kite for days or weeks on end. In fact in this way you could say being with the one you love is a bit like smoking crack, and just as addictive. In love, we long for each other when we are apart and gain immeasurable pleasure from being together. Ecstatic energy flows between two bodies rapt in love. We blithely bathe in oceans of lust. When falling in love we cannot get enough.

For many people what they wish for most is to fall in love. And yet, the potential consequences of a love gone wrong are so devastatingly and crushingly brutal that the aftermath of a relationship turned sour can literally be a life destroyed. People kill others for love. People kill themselves out of love. Depression and heart break are symptoms of falling in love with the wrong person. All of which makes me wonder – is it too risky to fall in love?

Falling in love has to be one of the most intoxicating mental states available to us in the great pantheon of mundane and crazy experiences that comprise the human condition. In fact, looking back at the experience from a decidedly sober and not ‘falling in love’ state of mind, it strikes me how ridiculous and almost delusional the whole process seems. It’s not just the subjective experience of being completely besotted with someone else, it’s the way we become so willing to give up so much to be with that other. Love is strong. Love strips us of our volition. Love derails plans, estranges us from friends and empties our pockets.

Falling in love is inherently risky. Most relationships fail and even those that ‘work’ are fraught with difficulties along the way. Falling in love exposes our deepest insecurities, triggers powerful feelings, and bestows great power in the hands of another. Falling in love opens us up to rejection, to not being good enough. Falling in love makes us vulnerable and invites the possibility that to the one we love we are unlovable. Love is a land inhabited by demons and devils. Only the brave would dare to tread here.

At least you’d think so, but in reality we do not choose to fall in love, love chooses us. Or rather, mysterious and powerful unconscious forces propel us irreversibly to collide with the universe of another. Only if we have been hurt sufficiently do we start to question whether we want to fall in love. Or maybe we proceed with more caution, chastened by experience, battle weary and wary of exposing ourselves to more pain.
Ultimately though, love can be a powerful tool. It is one of life’s great teachers, if we are receptive to it’s lessons and pay attention to the wisdom it can inspire. The burning light of love exposes the darkest recesses of our hearts. It shows us the ways in which we hurt, the ways we react when our insecurities are triggered, and offers us the opportunity to bring these ghouls out of the dark and in to conscious awareness. Slowly we are given a method by which to integrate our pain, and with the other, or without the other, we grow.

It is sometimes said that before you can love someone else you have to love yourself. I think this is a stupid saying – not least because it gets banded about without anyone really knowing what it means, and in any case you can’t just simply decide to start loving yourself all of a sudden. However I do think these words allude to an important truth. Before we can have a truly healthy relationship in love, one in which we are not using the other in order to fill something missing within ourselves, we need to be whole. This means we need to have developed to the point where our sense of self worth is not dependent on the validation of another.
Until life is ‘okay’ without the sweetness of our beloved’s touch, we run the risk of being broken by any subsequent withdrawal of love. And this is the challenge. Often, without consciously realising it, many people will use love because it will provide them with a sense of what they most need – to know that they are worthy of someone’s affection, to know that they are not alone. But to rely on someone else for these comforts is to deny ourselves the opportunity of discovering them within ourselves. We take when we should give, and despite feeling strengthened by relationship, we give our power away.

Yes, it is risky to fall in love, too risky perhaps. It is also seldom a choice we make. But for those consumed by love’s mysterious waters, who are able to listen and learn, love is a teacher and love will help us grow. Love will hurt, but slowly love can heal.

I tell this from my life and my love experience.. It is one of my beloved secrets..i hope what is waiting for me tomorrow. Until then bye......

HOW MY FIRST LOVE BECOMES MY FIRST ENEMY?????

“Everybody says the first cut if the deepest. It’s so true. I don’t know if it’s because it’s the best love, but it’s the first that you remember. There is one boy that I will remember for the rest of my life, and I wouldn’t go as far as to say, ‘Oh I was in love with him and he broke my heart’. You hold on to that, just that first experience, it’s good to have and you should appreciate it, even if it hurts.”  

It was during my fifth grade holidays..I was so happy. I spend my holidays with my friends and play with them and had fun with them.my best friend viola said that we need to spend our holidays in a useful manner also it has to be fun.so we decided to go to coaching class for tennis .I love to play tennis.so I agreed with her. Without knowing what is going to happen in that class we went there happily.. There starts my first love....

we were listed in the beginner's class since we were fifth graders only. All the fifth grade students were listed in our class..we were so happy...

on my first day our coach gave us some notes to write before starting to play the game.i went late during my first class.so everyone had already written the notes.since I am late our coach asks me to lend someone note and write it down..I am so shy and so I just stand there without doing anything.so the coach himself asked a boy to give his note to me. that's the point where my first love starts.. that boy came and told the coach that his handwriting is not good. but the coach insists the boy to give his note to me...that's the first time I met him.. He was so handsome and cute like a prince. every girl dreams about her prince and has some ideas how her prince will look like. Since I am a girl too I also had a dream about my prince too..and that prince had appeared before me at that time.i was so attracted to him.i cant able to take my eyes of him.he was so beautiful and when I opened his note what I saw was the most beautiful handwriting in the world.he wrote down every points very neatly and clearly.i got so impressed by him..that day I fell in love.he was my first love...

everyday I went to the coaching class not to learn tennis but to see him..the next day I gave the note to him.he didn't respond to me.he just got the note from me and went away.i like that character of him.his stubborn character has attracted me to him..he has such a cold character yet beautiful inside the heart.he played the tennis very perfectly like a professional.i become so crazy for him.he has such a perfect character but in my case I am not that perfect. Even though I study well, also play tennis well, I think that I am not pretty enough when compared to him.so I don't have enough courage to speak to him or confess my love to him. Days passed and I always watched him from distance and love his playing.at last the coaching classes were over .on that last day I see him lastly and I told myself it would be impossible to see him again . I said goodbye to my first love.....but I prayed the god to see him once again.....

our high school life starts and I got enrolled to seika high school.putting my first love inside my heart I went to the school happily.since it was my first love I cant able to forget it.to my surprise,on my first day at school ,I saw him again.i was so happy to see him again .and also he belongs to my class.i was so so happy.but that happiness did not last forever.since I am new to the school I had some problem to become friends with everyone.it took more time to become friends with every student of my class . Since I study well the teachers cared me very much and was so nice to me . Since I study well and got more attention from teachers some of my classmates hated me. That some classmates includes my first love too . Even though he has talent ,he didn't study well.so he hated me since every teacher is so nice to me and how I finish every work perfectly everyday.. He hated me so much. Also we had many problems and fights too . The teachers made me the class rep and so I had to took care of our class.my first love has a gang with 5 members . They were always so imperfect and wont do any works the teachers gave and talk always during the class hours.so its my duty to correct them .so I always gave them warning to study well and don't talk during the class. But they don't listen to my advice.so we had some fights everyday.my love for him vanishes due to his irresponsible behaviour. Day by day I get to know him and his character. He was so different from the character of what I dreamt of.so little by little we had so many problem and my love towards him become hatred and he also hates me very much. We always had fight mostly everyday. Even though I hate him there is still a small space where I love him. But I decided to seal that part away from my heart. Year by year passes and we had never became friend . Instead of becoming friends we become enemy. That's how my first love turned into my first enemy. We studied 7 years together.

on my last year during my high school we somehow became friends. That's because I am a friend of his one side love. He loves two girls but his first love is a senior. These two girls are friend of mine and we were close friends.so in order to speak with them he became friend with me. He chatted with me.

on my 12th grade holidays I mostly chatted with him. I agreed to help him with his love. I always thought he is an idiot to love two girls. Those two girls wont love him . They are the girls who wont love due to family reasons.it is never going to work out between them. I told him that but he ignored me and continued to love them. We spend my 12th holidays like this by chatting with him. I love to chat with him even though he is my enemy. That when I realize that I still love him.. But still then I don't have the courage to confess my love because I know that he will turn down my confession since he is already in love with two most beautiful girls.so I didn't confessed to him and continue to be friend with him. Even though we became friend we still fight and I love to fight with him. I am also so jealous of those two girls.. He loves those girls but those girls wont love him. I love him but he wont love me. Both of our love is not successful. Days passed and we entered into college. He went to a far distance college and I went to a near college. But still we continued to chat. Every time he chat ,he always speaks about his love and asks me to give an intro to him. But I always hesitate to do that.so he fight with me due to that reason. Our chatting goes to the next level and we talked over the phone.. Everyday we talked in the phone till 2AM in the morning. He shares with me everything that he had done during that day and his personal matters. Day by day we become a little close friend but not best friends. we talked and talked and talked everyday. I am the first girl whom he chats most and talks most except his sisters.iam so proud of that fact.but after then during his birthday we got a fight and seperated . That's because I promised him that I will give intro to his first love but I failed to give him during his birthday.so he became angry and he didn't spoke with me like usually. I also stopped chatting with him. I feel somehow jealous and thought that since he loves that girl why do I need to chat with him. Since he don't understand me why do I need to talk with him.so I stopped talking with him. I finally decided myself not to love him anymore nor expect him to love me. Because that is not going to happen forever.so I told my heart that he is not worthy of you and so I decided not to love him or have feelings for him since he is already deeply in love with his first love. He cant able to forget his first love.likewise I also cant able to forget my first love.

during those days I chatted,i thought that he recognizes my feelings for him.but I was wrong.he never recognized my feelings for him.its not going to happen.so I decided to gave up on him.

after his birthday he texted me one day surprisingly.i replied him.likewise he will text me rarely and also I reply him rarely.that how these days are going.

I always wonder that whether my feelings reach him or not before my life ends. Even if my feelings reach him means what will he do??will he accept my feelings or reject my feelings for him??likewise I have lots of questions in my mind. But from the bottom of my heart I hope that one day my feelings surely reach him....

“The future for me is already a thing of the past -
You were my first love and you will be my last”   this is the quote which I cant forget in my life..

I hope that one day I will find my true love...with that hope I live everyday but I cant forget my first love and my first enemy ever and ever..I wonder what is waiting for me tomorrow to impress me in my life.. Lets see...until then bye...

Love or Life??which you want???

As I am a girl under age of 18 I was so confused with my life and my love. every girl in this age has to undergo this stage. those who perfectly cross this stage can be able to live a wonderful life. now I am in that stage.....

"An ugly yet beautiful world"is a quote which I read recently . It strikes me at that point when I read that quote. I told myself that quote is one truthful one and I have experienced it.

Now I am in college . Everyone loves college. They make friends and enjoy their life .we really don't study as much as we always like to during our school . Instead of studying we spend more time with friends and chat with them and go out with them and do some fun things . Everyone will fall in love . That is a college life.....its a wonderful and fun life which we dare to miss...

But in my case I haven't experienced any one things as I said above . My whole life is a very different one from a normal college student life.. I would rather say that my life resembles the quote "An ugly yet beautiful world" . It has so many adventures . These adventures are not big adventures like climbing Himalayas. . Those are small adventures which include some pain, some love, some fun. That's my life. Everyday I learn something about my life and my love.

This blog will say about my life in past and present and my love,,,,,

I always can't able to distinguish between my life and my love.. Frankly I can say that I have no heart to love.. But every girl has a heart to love to care.in my life I really don't have many friends.my friends circle Is very small.am very sociable and yet I don't have many friends.my friends always think of me as a girl who talks more and easily gets angry . But they really don't understand me very well.. Even I don't understand myself.my family is very small and very caring one . But now my family is in a little bit confused state . I really don't find peace when I am on home ..I don't enjoy my life nor my college life . Does every girl in the world has this life that I have without any love? is a question which I asks myself a many number of times.. But this is really not my life..

My life was whole different when I was younger.in my past I have lots of friend.my family loves me . I enjoyed my school days. Everyday is like a heaven to me. I even have my first love in my school days and have fun time with my school friends and my outside friends . But unfortunately they don't last forever.

even though I have such a life with no fun I can be able to have some fun by doing what I love . I love music. Even though I don't have a lover, I have another lover which is music.my whole world revolves around music . I go to a different world when I play the music.in that world I have a very beautiful life. I love that life...that life and that love is not a real one but still I love that.

those small friend circle gives a lot of fun too . They tease me ,encourages me and help me. we often fight. But we surely love each other . Love doesn't means it has to come from a boy or girl who becomes his or her life partner. Love can come from anything around the world.. Its our talent to be able to cherish it and care for it for our whole life.

So in my life and my love I choose both one. Everyday is a challenge for me.it has mostly pain in it. But still I want to make that pain transform into happiness and make my friends also happy. I want to live a life like it. Even though I don't have a real lover ,I have my music.so I am satisfied with it . I really look forward what is going to happen tomorrow. Lets see....

This is my quote that I learned today.. I am really excited what I will learn tomorrow. Until then bye..